Den of the Celtic Kitsune

About Me

In Japanese folklore, kitsunes are believed to possess great intelligence, long life, and magical powers. Foremost among these is the ability to shapeshift into human form; a fox is said to learn to do this when it attains a certain age (usually a hundred years, though some tales say fifty). Kitsune usually appear in the shape of a beautiful woman, a young girl, or an old man, but almost never an elderly woman. Supernatural powers commonly attributed to the kitsune include, in addition to shapeshifting, the ability to generate fire or lightning from their tails or to breathe fire (known as kitsune-bi, literally "foxfire"), the power to manifest in dreams, the power to fly, and the ability to create illusions so elaborate as to be almost indistinguishable from reality. Some tales go further still, speaking of kitsune with the ability to bend time and space, to drive people mad, or to take such nonhuman and fantastic shapes as a tree of incredible height or a second moon in the sky. And that's just what I do every day. You should see what I do in my spare time....

Monday, February 12, 2007

Kids having kids and why they should not

"Hello Schmoopy" --Jerry

"Awww hello schmoopy" --Jerry's girlfriend

"How's my little schmoopy today?" --Jerry

"Ugh they are sooooo aggravating with their little schmoopy this and schmoopy that."
Substitute female co-worker and her fiance for Seinfeld and girlfriend and this is basically what I have to put up with everyday. It's only gotten worse since they found out that their preggers. Don't know how much more of cutesy-wootsey verbal lovemaking I can stand...

--Sionnach, the hanging-on-by-a-thread fox

Monday, February 05, 2007

When did I enter that race?

A coworker announced today that she and her fiance (who also works for the company) are having a baby. I think for most folks, the reaction would be congratulatory, but not me. Naturally, I said that first thing that came to my mind: "Oh, I guess you guys need to find that house!" Yes, I know. It was tacky and probably rude, but I just couldn't feign excitement and happiness when I just don't feel it. I feel like they are rushing blindly into too many responsibilities at once. The soon-to-be parents are even younger than myself. They are currently living with his parents, unmarried (although they plan to get married when "they have the money"), and looking for their first house and a dog. So that's a house & mortgage, a dog, a baby, and a wedding in less than a year for two people with high school diplomas working dead-end customer service jobs. What part of that sounds like a good idea?

Don't get me wrong. I love kids and while I don't necessarily see the need for marriage, I would like to settle down with a mate and discuss the possibility of a child--eventually. I am 26 years old, working a stable full time job and just starting on my bachelor's degree. I feel like I've made intelligent, cautious choices for my life with my eyes open. I want to get my feet under me financially and emotionally before I consider adding further chaos with a mate and baby and a mortgage. So... why do I feel like I'm doing something wrong?

Rationally, I know that I have no business dictating life choices to anyone but myself, but my instincts are screaming at me that my coworkers are making a tremendous mistake because they are so in love (in lust) that they can't see clearly. Maybe they are. Maybe they are really are "soulmates" and this will work out for them. On the flip side, watching them cooing and planning to play house day in and day out, makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong with my life. I can't explain why. I really wish that I knew why I feel like I'm losing a race that I didn't know I'd entered.